Felix

[shannonteverius]

After Shannon's brief conversation with Alcuin...

On the way to the Mirador Shannon had had plenty of time to work himself up from a simmering anger to a full on hurricane. The tension around him hummed, like lightning on water, except this storm wasn't safely on the horizon. It was quickly approaching Felix's front door. No one who passed Shannon thought to utter a word as he walked to his lover's apartment. Yet, when he stood in front of the door and knocked, his expression smoothed and when the door opened his smile was almost seductive.

"Felix," he purred, placing a hand on the man's chest and pushing forward. "May I come in?"

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[shannonteverius]

The yearning was like a physical ache. Shannon held a swirling mix of hope and fear at bay enough to ask, "Would you want to?"

[harrowgate]

Felix wanted Shannon in his arms so terribly that he had to curl his hands around the back of the sofa to provide a real sensation to combat the phantom emptiness. "I wouldn't dream of it," he whispered. "No more than I want him controlling me."

[shannonteverius]

Relief swamped Shannon but he heard the warning as well. He nodded in acknowledgment. "It is no one's business but our own what we do," he said, "but I am not going to keep our dating a secret. I would prefer it if you did the same." He swallowed. "And I don't want to know what you do with others," he added before giving in, finally, and sliding onto Felix's lap. He straddled Felix's thighs and settled his weight on Felix's knees. The indulgence was like a balm to his nerves. He took Felix's face in his hands and breathed his next words against Felix's lips. "As long as this is only ours," he said, and kissed him.

He hadn't meant the kiss. It was the moment, the imagining they had spoken about, the emotions that were never voiced but surely did exist that he had been referring to. He trusted his lover to know that, but poured his meaning into the deepening kiss anyway just to make himself perfectly clear.

[harrowgate]

From the moment Shannon slid onto his lap and into his arms, Felix barely heard what he said, let alone took the time to understand it. His lips chased Shannon's, his arms wrapped around the other man's body, starving for his warmth, and he kissed Shannon like his breath was the only thing keeping Felix alive.

[shannonteverius]

Shannon's fingers sank into the luxurious silk of Felix's hair and he moaned into Felix's mouth. He refused to let their lips part for even a second until oxygen became a necessity. Even then he stayed close, pressing his cheek to Felix's.

"Take me to bed, Felix," he whispered.

[harrowgate]

"In a moment," Felix promised, barely a breath in Shannon's ear. He did not want to move from this place, this precious now, when he felt so certain that Shannon knew how he felt without his needing to speak. His embrace tightened, as if Shannon might escape him if he didn't hold the man close.

[shannonteverius]

Felix's desire to stay where they were surprised Shannon but there was nothing that could make him refuse when Felix held him so tightly. He returned the embrace and settled his chin on Felix's shoulder. "Perhaps more than a moment," he said.

[harrowgate]

"Shannon..." Felix knew he couldn't say the words, arrested in his throat by a lifetime of proof that his love was unworthy, unwanted, and insufficient. It was like a curse, feeling this way about anyone: twisted, mutilated, and turned to ash. If Felix didn't speak it aloud, perhaps it couldn't curse Shannon.

He rested his forehead on Shannon's shoulder, hating that something other people found so simple became so ugly and misshapen inside him.

[shannonteverius]

Shannon ran gentle fingers through Felix's hair. He didn't feel the need to say anything. Their embrace spoke volumes into the peaceful silence of the room. Words could only fall short in comparison, yet the desire to speak bubbled up inside him and refused to be quelled.

Fingers still stroking slowly, he closed his eyes and whispered, "I love you, too."

[harrowgate]

He felt as though his entire body had seized him for a moment, a thrill of longing nearly crushed by the weight of his fear. Felix wanted to tell Shannon it was dangerous, stupid even, but he wasn't strong enough to reject this offering that he desired beyond all reason. "Bed," he breathed, hauling Shannon up into his arms in an unusual burst of strength as he made their way to the bedroom.

[shannonteverius]

"Oh!" Shannon exclaimed, clinging tighter to Felix in his surprise. "Well this is a gesture I never would have imagined." Granted, he hadn't imagined most of the things Felix had introduced him to lately.

[harrowgate]

"Hush," Felix instructed, choked and sharp. He flung them both into the bedroom, and his mouth was on Shannon's before he even reached the bed, silencing him effectively. One hand cupped behind Shannon's neck, even in his rush of passion, to protect his head as they fell to the bed together. Felix pressed Shannon back into the sheets, kissing him breathless.

[shannonteverius]

Felix had been so gentle with Shannon lately. This sudden assertiveness in his actions was thrilling and Shannon returned the kisses with fervor.

He slid his hands over Felix's back, pulling his lover closer even though there was not a breath of space between them. His fingers pressed into the fabric of Felix's dressing gown, but the touch was unsatisfying. He tugged on the gown, hoping to pull it from Felix's shoulders.

[harrowgate]

At Shannon's slightest encouragement, Felix rolled his shoulders out of the silk sleeves, and divested himself of both dressing gown and, with frustrated fingers, the draw string trousers he'd had been wearing as well. Through all of this he never allowed Shannon's mouth more than a breath from his own.

Tossing off as much of his clothing as he could manage, Felix slid one leg over Shannon's, readying to straddle him. "Take me," he demanded, short and hot and gasping.

[shannonteverius]

Shannon blinked in surprise. "Like this?" he asked, even as he hurriedly worked to divest himself of clothing.

[harrowgate]

Felix lifted his brows, giving Shannon a look of such elegantly-crafted expectation that a lesser man would have leapt to do anything he bid. He only paused for half a moment like that, before reaching to the side of the bed, tugging open a drawer in the bedside table, and snatching a bottle of lubrication that he pressed into Shannon's hand.

"Like this," he demanded, straddling his bare thighs over Shannon's hips. His cock swelled rapidly to firmness. "Quickly."

[shannonteverius]

Powers, Felix was beautiful. Shannon's desire, coupled with Felix's demands, made an irresistible force. He left his clothing as it was and shifted only enough fabric to release his aching member. He slicked it quickly and added extra to his fingers to anoint Felix's entrance. What stretching he did for Felix was done hurriedly but as thoroughly as he could. He knew neither of them could wait, but he would not hurt his lover unnecessarily.

Unable to wait any longer, he took hold of Felix's hip and guided him into position. He pulled down on Felix's hip but let his lover set the pace for that initial entrance.

[harrowgate]

All he wanted was Shannon inside him. Felix could take much worse than a swift preparation, and just then, any delay was an agony to be endured before he could have what he wanted. Biting back a groan, he rolled his hips and lowered himself, shuddering as the smooth length of Shannon's cock stretched his entrance and slid slowly inside him. He wanted to scream, or snarl, or beg in the most vulgar words he knew.

Instead, he dropped his head back, gripping Shannon's sides and trembling with pleasure as he sank down, taking every inch of that beautiful heat and thickness inside him.

[shannonteverius]

Shannon's breath left him in a rush as Felix's body enveloped him. He closed his eyes and took a moment to enjoy the perfection but he could not remain still for long. He slid his hands over Felix's thighs and then held tight. Looking up at Felix's face he said, "Hold on," and began to thrust, pulling Felix to him with every movement to drive deep into Felix's body.

[harrowgate]

Felix closed his eyes with a throaty moan, surrendering himself willingly to Shannon's power. He forgot about keeping quiet, abandoned his usual focus on Shannon's pleasure before his own. Right then, he wanted to be taken, and he wanted it hot and hard and fast -- and he wanted Shannon to give it to him. Nothing less would do. Felix's hips snapped in an answering rhythm, riding Shannon's thrusts relentlessly.

[shannonteverius]

Encouraged by Felix's counterthrusts, Shannon's fingers dug into Felix's skin and he pulled harder, thrust as deep as he could manage. The pleasure written in Felix's expression was something to behold and he wanted more of it. He wanted Felix to come apart with him like he would for no one else.

[harrowgate]

Trusting that Shannon would hold on to him and keep him where he desperately needed to be, Felix shifted one hand from Shannon's hip to his own cock and wrapped his fingers around himself. He needn't even stroke, only grip himself loosely and allow the needy, driving force of their bodies together spiral his pleasure to dizzying heights, until Felix was tossing his head back and crying out with the blinding brilliance of every new thrust.

This was a part of him, wild and untamed and hungry, that Felix had never allowed Shannon to see, but tonight, his need overrode his sense and tore away his veils of propriety completely.

[shannonteverius]

Each cry of Felix's pleasure drove Shannon to chase another and another. He grunted with his efforts, his thighs burning, but he would not stop when he could see more of this side of his lover.

[harrowgate]

Felix let his passion take him, let Shannon take him, awash in the deep, intimate, physical confirmation of those words he had whispered. Hearing it was not enough. He needed to feel it, and he did, hot and hard and real inside him.

The cry that tore his throat when he came was sharp and ragged near-agony of pleasure, arching his back, his release spilling hard over his hand and Shannon's tight white stomach.

[shannonteverius]

Shannon thrust through Felix's orgasm, wanting to prolong it, until the pulsing massage of Felix's muscles sent him over the edge. He came with a groan, his body taught as he shuddered. Then he collapsed to the bed, weak and panting, his hands still loosely holding Felix's hips.

His mouth curved in a lazy smile as he looked up at his lover. Felix was so beautiful. Shannon wished he had the strength to lift his arms and caress Felix's pale skin. His sapphire eyes danced with something more than just the aftermath of pleasure as he admired Felix. They echoed whispered words and unspoken emotions.

"I want to stay with you tonight," he said softly.